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Sunshine time
Jun. 1st, 2021 09:08 am
12 Days of ____:
Jan. 26th, 2021 04:30 pmHow Many 12 Days of ____:
Link/List(s) Below:
12 Days of Kittymas
1 one climbing tree
2 two new cat beds
3 three rounds of zoomies
4 four fishy toys
5 five jingly balls
6 six cans of cat food
7 seven bits of ribbon
8 eight crinkly bags
9 nine bags of katnip
10 ten open boxes
11 eleven hiding places
12 twelve chicken nommies
12 days of Fandom
1 one brand new fandom
2 two hot new otps
3 three awesome picspams
4 four twitter trends
5 five new podcasts
6 six episode reviews
7 seven behind the scene pics
8 eight funny tumblr posts
9 nine new followers
10 ten deviantart icons
11 eleven tropey long fics
12 twelve new episodes
Link/List(s) Below:
12 Days of Kittymas
1 one climbing tree
2 two new cat beds
3 three rounds of zoomies
4 four fishy toys
5 five jingly balls
6 six cans of cat food
7 seven bits of ribbon
8 eight crinkly bags
9 nine bags of katnip
10 ten open boxes
11 eleven hiding places
12 twelve chicken nommies
12 days of Fandom
1 one brand new fandom
2 two hot new otps
3 three awesome picspams
4 four twitter trends
5 five new podcasts
6 six episode reviews
7 seven behind the scene pics
8 eight funny tumblr posts
9 nine new followers
10 ten deviantart icons
11 eleven tropey long fics
12 twelve new episodes
Marks on the World
Aug. 12th, 2020 05:18 amIs it wrong to want to leave a mark on the world? Something to remain when you die?
I think I do the things I do with the goal of leaving behind something Ive created to show that I was here. I craft and I write furiously. I must leave something to prove that I existed after all that know me are gone as well.
I have no children to carry on my blood. A decision that I don't regret. I would have never been a good mother. My genetics are too mangled and my temperament is too volatile. The combination of the two made the usual mark on the world impossible.
What will happen to the things I've created is a mystery. Will they be enjoyed? Ignored? Or simply thrown away? It doesn't matter what happens to it all because I will cease to have control of it. I will be ash and the world will have to decide the relevance of it all.
The world will have to decide what my marks are worth to them. Will they be permanent or transitory? That is not my decision. If it were I would want it all to exist until the end of mankind. Unfortunately, that is unrealistic.
The thousands of words of stories…
The miles of yarn I have consumed….
The people I have touched in some way….
These are the marks I leave. These are the only way I can prove that I existed, even for a brief moment.
Is it enough? Is it ever?
The Words…...
Aug. 12th, 2020 05:16 am Have you ever made a decision that you instantly regret but you have to just suck it up and deal?
Yeah. I bet you have. I made one of those recently.
I may as well own up to it. I had the bright idea to up my GYWO word pledge in June to double of what it was. Granted it was a rare opportunity afforded to us because of the plague and I just had to do it. Yep. It was a crazy idea.
Seriously what the holy hell was I thinking? I dont think I was actually thinking. See the problem?
Next time I do something this crazy will someone just talk me out of it or smack me or both. I though I could manage it with July Camp Nano and NaNoWriMo in November but now I'm not so sure. I may still be able to carry it off but wow….
The lesson in this is don't just do things just because you can. It's a lesson I'm going to learn very well this year.
The Apocalypse Cometh…. The Beer Flu
Apr. 9th, 2020 06:55 pm Well, here we are at the apocalypse ….. the Beer Flu. Okay so it's not really a flu and you don't get it from drinking beer. Boy, wouldn't that sober up a lot of people. (Pointing at my redneck neighbor with the beer in his hand.)
It's been awhile since there's been a pandemic of any kind. I think the last one was in the early 1920s. Don't quote me on that. I could be wrong. That one was influenza and the death toll was pretty heavy.
Also pandemic is a weird word. It makes me think of panic. Maybe that's the point. It's an epidemic meant to cause panic. Well, take a deep breath and find your courage because you're going to need it to get through this. No panicking allowed.
On a serious note, if you are old as dirt or have any type of breathing or immune system issues, you need to be careful. The Beer Flu thinks you're tasty. This also applies to brand new babies. Pandemics tend to kill the young, the old and the infirm. That's just how they roll. Sadistic bastards!
If you didn't hoard toilet paper and hand sanitizer like your neighbors, don't panic. Remember that's what the Beer Flu wants you to do. So don't. You can always make friends with that crazy prepper with the bunker in his basement next door if you run out of toilet paper. Take them a casserole!
It's been awhile since there's been a pandemic of any kind. I think the last one was in the early 1920s. Don't quote me on that. I could be wrong. That one was influenza and the death toll was pretty heavy.
Also pandemic is a weird word. It makes me think of panic. Maybe that's the point. It's an epidemic meant to cause panic. Well, take a deep breath and find your courage because you're going to need it to get through this. No panicking allowed.
On a serious note, if you are old as dirt or have any type of breathing or immune system issues, you need to be careful. The Beer Flu thinks you're tasty. This also applies to brand new babies. Pandemics tend to kill the young, the old and the infirm. That's just how they roll. Sadistic bastards!
If you didn't hoard toilet paper and hand sanitizer like your neighbors, don't panic. Remember that's what the Beer Flu wants you to do. So don't. You can always make friends with that crazy prepper with the bunker in his basement next door if you run out of toilet paper. Take them a casserole!
There are simple things you can do to keep yourself safe. Some of them you should always do even without an apocalypse looming.
-Wash your damn hands with hot water and soap. You should be doing that anyway. Why do you need to be told again? Do it before you touch food and after you use the bathroom.
-Don't mess up your makeup! Touching your face, rubbing your eyes, and picking your nose are the Beer Flu's easiest ways in.
-Cover your spray! Cough or sneeze into a tissue or your elbow. It's your responsibility to keep your spray in check. Throw away that tissue and go wash your damn hands.
-Wipe it! Wipe it good! Use a disinfecting wipe on your phone, tablet and computer keyboard. Keep some handy if you share the computer. You may have washed your damn hands but there's always someone who forgets. Don't forget the game controllers and remotes!
-Be like Spock! Vulcans don't shake hands. Keep your hands and other parts of your body to yourself.
-Not today Satan! Cancel all meetings, gatherings, and hook ups that you can. The Beer Flu can't get you if it can't find you. Stay home read a book, stream something or play online games.
-Skype is your friend. If you have to take a meeting, do it online. (P.S. Naked Skype is fun too)
-Eat, Drink, and be Merry! Eat good food. Drink lots of water. Keep your stress level low. Stress lowers your immune response.
Damn! The Beer Flu found you….that sucks!
-If you're sick, get your ass back home and stay there! Nobody wants your germy ass anywhere near them. Go! Now!
-High risk is only fun when it's poker. If you're in one of the high risk categories contact your doctor. Follow the doctor's instructions like your life depends on it. It does.
-Call the Limo. If you have any flu like sickness with severe breathing difficulties or very high fever, call an ambulance. Do this even if you're usually healthy. Beer Flu isn't all that picky. It found you, didn't it?
Stay safe y'all and wash your damn hands!
Four Haiku
Feb. 27th, 2020 03:20 am #1
The cat sleeps soundly
He falls off with a loud thud
He no longer sleeps
#2
Trees begin to bloom
Spring has finally come now
The birds are singing
#3
I am a writer
Tell the stories of others
A storyteller
#4
Four walls surround me
A home is where the heart is
My heart is so far away
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I want to write a smutty romance novel
Jul. 19th, 2019 12:54 pm You know what I'm talking about. One of those books with half naked people on the cover. The ones where all the men have big dicks and abs for days. The women are all virgins with big boobs.
Yep. You know what I mean. Those books we all secretly read but no one will admit to reading them.
And it's not just m/f couples either. There are smutty same sex books too so don't give me that "I only read m/m or f/f stories". They also have men with big dicks and abs for days and those women with the big boobs that "have never ever done this sort of thing before".
Smutty books come in all flavors so don't try to tell me they don't. We all read them. Don't lie.
The problem is when I start to write a smutty romance novel, my muse comes over and asks where the magical creatures are. When I say there aren't any, she smacks my hands and tells me to make somebody a damn elf or faerie. Hell. She'd be happy with a shapeshifter.
I really need to have a talk with her about the smacking. She's aggressive and a bit cranky. If it's not sci fi or fantasy, she refuses to participate in the creative process. She's a pain in the ass that way.
So you see my problem?
Writing a smutty romance novel is hard for me. One day, I will get my muse to just let write something that doesn't have magical creatures in it. Until then, I will just have to be content with reading all the smutty romance novels I can.
Yep. You know what I mean. Those books we all secretly read but no one will admit to reading them.
And it's not just m/f couples either. There are smutty same sex books too so don't give me that "I only read m/m or f/f stories". They also have men with big dicks and abs for days and those women with the big boobs that "have never ever done this sort of thing before".
Smutty books come in all flavors so don't try to tell me they don't. We all read them. Don't lie.
The problem is when I start to write a smutty romance novel, my muse comes over and asks where the magical creatures are. When I say there aren't any, she smacks my hands and tells me to make somebody a damn elf or faerie. Hell. She'd be happy with a shapeshifter.
I really need to have a talk with her about the smacking. She's aggressive and a bit cranky. If it's not sci fi or fantasy, she refuses to participate in the creative process. She's a pain in the ass that way.
So you see my problem?
Writing a smutty romance novel is hard for me. One day, I will get my muse to just let write something that doesn't have magical creatures in it. Until then, I will just have to be content with reading all the smutty romance novels I can.
Is there a point to this?
Jan. 3rd, 2019 11:16 pmIs there a point to this?
I wonder why I still do this. I don’t think I’ll ever manage to get published. I believe i have been wasting my time. At least, I feel like i am. It's totally frustrating me.
I write fanfiction all the time. I have regular readers. I have regular commenters. But its fanfiction and there is an interest in that. I'm not sure I could get the same interest in my original fiction.
I write fantasy and science fiction when I’m not writing fanfiction. It's not a really common thing. I like it so that's what I write. It's not everyone's taste. I know but i try to do it well.
I like to create worlds then go on adventures in them. World building is fun. Worlds can be anything and anywhere. Creating characters to go on adventures is fun too. I create creatures of every description from androids to shape shifting aliens.
I've never gotten much interest in my original stuff. Once in a while, I get a comment but that’s rare. If I can't get readers on free sites how am I supposed to get people to pay to read my stuff.
I know that advertisement is important but I don’t know how to even go about it. Where should I advertise? Facebook? Tumblr? Twitter? Twitter? If I use those things then I’m relying on my followers to get the word out. It doesn't seem very effective.
Getting a publisher is another problem. What if no one wants to publish it? I could go the self-publishing route but I have no clue as to how to go about it.
Most writers get an agent but I don’t have money for that. I don’t have money for anything. That's part of the reason that I would like to publish something to get some extra money coming in.
Basically I’m stuck. Why should I bother writing anymore? Because I am compelled by a force greater than my frustration and self-doubt.
In the Grand Scheme of Things
Nov. 13th, 2018 09:47 am In the Grand Scheme of Things
Who am I?
I am a woman which puts me at a disadvantage from the moment i was born.
I am not married and I currently have no desire to be so.
I am no one's mother but i seem to be everyone's auntie.
I am disabled both physically and emotionally.
I am a product of my experiences and all that means.
I have been abused but physically and emotionally.
I am a pagan who worships a goddess.
I am short, fat, and old.
But to answer the question bluntly I am no one.
What have i done?
I make things.
I crochet and do crafts.
I have been a teacher a singer and a sales agent.
I write stories that are both original and fanfiction.
I have been a friend.
I have been a mentor.
I have been a gamer girl
I have been a leader.
I have done very little and nothing earth shattering.
What will I leave behind as my legacy?
The footprint that i will leave behind will be small.
I am not well known or well respected.
It will be the memories of the people i touch and the things i created.
I will leave only what others think about what ive done and who i am.
Its unfair but it is the truth.
In the grand scheme of things, I am nothing and no one with nothing of importance to leave behind.
Personal Responsibility and Safety
Feb. 8th, 2018 02:57 pmPersonal Responsibility and Safety
When you do something stupid, you should expect there to be consequences and when there are you need to be willing to accept them. Sometimes being stupid can cause you to be in danger as well.
Recently a female acquaintance had nude and partially nude photos posted on a website by a male second party. I do not condone his actions but I do not feel she is an innocent victim either.
One of the first things we tell our daughters, granddaughters and nieces is to not send nudes to anyone via email, text or an online messenger. We tell them this for personal safety as well as to instill common decency in them.
These days, photos have encrypted data on them. GPS information, as well as date and time stamps, is encrypted in them. It is not difficult to extract this date and find out where they were taken. There is always a chance that an obsessed person will use that data to come to there and cause harm to the person in the photos.
At the very least nude or partially nude photos are never meant to be shared by people that don’t know each other in real life. If you don’t know someone personally then you should never exchange that kind of material and you should absolutely never do it digitally.
The one thing about the internet is that you can be whoever you want to be. You can be as sweet as sugar on line and be a total bitch in real life or the opposite. No one really knows each other on line.
In that light, you can’t really trust anyone on line. That is why we tell young women not to send nudes to people on line. You can’t trust someone you don’t really know not to take those photos and use them to find you or post them. To think otherwise is more than just naïve, it’s dangerous.
Now back to the female acquaintance, was she a victim? In a way, yes. Could she have avoided being a victim? Absolutely.
She is an adult and didn’t use her best judgement in sending photos to multiple individuals and posting them in group chats. She endangered herself. Now she wants to blame the individuals who posted them on line for hurting her. She refuses to accept her part in it.
Her friends have been supportive but they are not looking at the big picture. They blame the men but not their friend. They fail to see that she was the one that sent the photos and she was the one who needs to take responsibility for her part in all of this.
As I said I don’t condone the actions of the men but I don’t condone her actions either. Neither is blameless in this.
When you do something stupid, you should expect there to be consequences and when there are you need to be willing to accept them. Sometimes being stupid can cause you to be in danger as well.
Recently a female acquaintance had nude and partially nude photos posted on a website by a male second party. I do not condone his actions but I do not feel she is an innocent victim either.
One of the first things we tell our daughters, granddaughters and nieces is to not send nudes to anyone via email, text or an online messenger. We tell them this for personal safety as well as to instill common decency in them.
These days, photos have encrypted data on them. GPS information, as well as date and time stamps, is encrypted in them. It is not difficult to extract this date and find out where they were taken. There is always a chance that an obsessed person will use that data to come to there and cause harm to the person in the photos.
At the very least nude or partially nude photos are never meant to be shared by people that don’t know each other in real life. If you don’t know someone personally then you should never exchange that kind of material and you should absolutely never do it digitally.
The one thing about the internet is that you can be whoever you want to be. You can be as sweet as sugar on line and be a total bitch in real life or the opposite. No one really knows each other on line.
In that light, you can’t really trust anyone on line. That is why we tell young women not to send nudes to people on line. You can’t trust someone you don’t really know not to take those photos and use them to find you or post them. To think otherwise is more than just naïve, it’s dangerous.
Now back to the female acquaintance, was she a victim? In a way, yes. Could she have avoided being a victim? Absolutely.
She is an adult and didn’t use her best judgement in sending photos to multiple individuals and posting them in group chats. She endangered herself. Now she wants to blame the individuals who posted them on line for hurting her. She refuses to accept her part in it.
Her friends have been supportive but they are not looking at the big picture. They blame the men but not their friend. They fail to see that she was the one that sent the photos and she was the one who needs to take responsibility for her part in all of this.
As I said I don’t condone the actions of the men but I don’t condone her actions either. Neither is blameless in this.
Its Gong To Be A Difficult Year
Jan. 2nd, 2017 01:05 amLivejournal or OpenID: sidhe_faerie
Dreamwidth: sidhe_faerie
Previous name: n/a
Tumblr: faeriefantasy or Original Sunday
Twitter: none
Pledge: 300K Difficult
Statement of writing goals: I just want to try to finish all the things I started that have been just sitting there waiting for more words.
Dreamwidth: sidhe_faerie
Previous name: n/a
Tumblr: faeriefantasy or Original Sunday
Twitter: none
Pledge: 300K Difficult
Statement of writing goals: I just want to try to finish all the things I started that have been just sitting there waiting for more words.
NaNoWriMo 2016 Final thoughts
Dec. 21st, 2016 09:04 amNaNoWriMo 2016 Final thoughts
Final Validation: 51017
Finished: Casualty (Arrow), Dark Realms #2, Dark Realms #10, Dark Realms #11, Dark Realms Short #2, Nanotide #1, Nanotide #2, Nanotide #3, Nanotide #4, Nanotide #5, Nanotide #6, Nanotide #7, Nanotide #8, Nanotide #9, Nanotide #10, Nanotide #11, Nanotide #12, Nanotide #13, Nanotide #15, Nanotide #16 Nanotide #17, Nanotide #18, Blog post
Worked on but not finished: The Mountain (Arrow), Edge of Swords (OD)
My goal this year was to finish the pile or at least make a dent in it. I don’t think I accomplished that goal. I did finish a few things but mostly I played catch up with my monthly work.
I never realized how much I write on a weekly/monthly basis. I thought that I was pulling back on obligations but it doesn’t seem like that true. Most of the words for NaNoWriMo were things that I do on a regular basis.
I did four Camelot Drabble prompts, Dove Drabble prompt, four Beat the Black Dog prompts, November Puzzle Prompts using Dark Realms, two land community challenges, and a one shot for Round Table Minutes
Do you see the problem here?
Only two of these communities allow original fiction. That means I still wrote more fan fiction than I was hoping to do.
So what is the solution?
I have no idea. I love writing Merlin and Arrow and all the other fandoms but I need to start focusing on my stories more. I need to make them a priority not an afterthought.
My worlds matter too! That is what NaNoWriMo is about, finding our own worlds and telling their stories.
Final Validation: 51017
Finished: Casualty (Arrow), Dark Realms #2, Dark Realms #10, Dark Realms #11, Dark Realms Short #2, Nanotide #1, Nanotide #2, Nanotide #3, Nanotide #4, Nanotide #5, Nanotide #6, Nanotide #7, Nanotide #8, Nanotide #9, Nanotide #10, Nanotide #11, Nanotide #12, Nanotide #13, Nanotide #15, Nanotide #16 Nanotide #17, Nanotide #18, Blog post
Worked on but not finished: The Mountain (Arrow), Edge of Swords (OD)
My goal this year was to finish the pile or at least make a dent in it. I don’t think I accomplished that goal. I did finish a few things but mostly I played catch up with my monthly work.
I never realized how much I write on a weekly/monthly basis. I thought that I was pulling back on obligations but it doesn’t seem like that true. Most of the words for NaNoWriMo were things that I do on a regular basis.
I did four Camelot Drabble prompts, Dove Drabble prompt, four Beat the Black Dog prompts, November Puzzle Prompts using Dark Realms, two land community challenges, and a one shot for Round Table Minutes
Do you see the problem here?
Only two of these communities allow original fiction. That means I still wrote more fan fiction than I was hoping to do.
So what is the solution?
I have no idea. I love writing Merlin and Arrow and all the other fandoms but I need to start focusing on my stories more. I need to make them a priority not an afterthought.
My worlds matter too! That is what NaNoWriMo is about, finding our own worlds and telling their stories.
Get Your Words Out 2017
Dec. 21st, 2016 08:53 am
GetYourWordsOut: Year Nine! Pledges & Requirements | GYWO.net
NaNoWriMo 2016 Week 1
Nov. 9th, 2016 10:36 amWord Count: 15,652
Finished: Dark Realms Episode #2, Dark Realms Short #2, Nanotide #1, Nanotide #3, Nanotide #4, Nanotide #5
I have managed to finish a thing from the pile and some things that sort of popped up. I hope some more get done in the coming week.
So far I’ve been able to keep a strong pace but I know at some point it will catch up with me. It always does. I hope that it will wait until I have the bulk of my word count done but who knows.
I didn’t panic this year at the beginning. I just put my head down and wrote words. Maybe I’m over that initial fear thing but I won’t know until next year.
The widget on my profile doesn’t seem to want to work so I guess I will have to send a message to support. That’s so annoying but it’s a little thing. It shouldn’t interfere with my writing.
Finished: Dark Realms Episode #2, Dark Realms Short #2, Nanotide #1, Nanotide #3, Nanotide #4, Nanotide #5
I have managed to finish a thing from the pile and some things that sort of popped up. I hope some more get done in the coming week.
So far I’ve been able to keep a strong pace but I know at some point it will catch up with me. It always does. I hope that it will wait until I have the bulk of my word count done but who knows.
I didn’t panic this year at the beginning. I just put my head down and wrote words. Maybe I’m over that initial fear thing but I won’t know until next year.
The widget on my profile doesn’t seem to want to work so I guess I will have to send a message to support. That’s so annoying but it’s a little thing. It shouldn’t interfere with my writing.
