Mickey's Letter

Hello My Dearest Friends,

I'm Mickey or that is the name I go by in the virtual world. Sometimes I go by this name in the real world as well. My real name is not important. I also don't wish to share my real name with you. I have my reasons.

I have learned to hide who I am with some skill. At first, I hid because of fear but not anymore. The fear I thought was out there is dead and gone. Now, I hide by habit. It has become my way of life. It is now who I am.

When I learned of the death of my fear, I also learned that the reason I feared it was all an evil lie told by selfish people for selfish reasons. Their true reasons were never explained to me. They said they made me be afraid of it for my own good.

I realized that those reasons will never be explained to me. They say I don’t deserve an explanation. I don’t need one. Those selfish people aren't talking. At least they aren't talking to me. Actually, they aren't talking to anyone about any of this..

One day, I learned that I never had anything to fear. It was all an allusion. It was done to deprive me of something I can never get back. Something they did not wish for me to have.

It was done to me out of love or so they said at the time. It was really done out of spite to hurt me and another who also didn't deserve it. They wanted to separate us and never let us get to know each other. They never wanted us to learn the truth behind the lies.

The lie had repercussions. I lost more than first thought. I lost my identity. I lost love and family. I lost possible happy memories. Most of all I lost a part of myself that I can't ever get back.

I should be angry but I have realized that anger will not give me back what I have lost. Anger will only make me lose time and energy on something that can’t be changed. I have lost too much. I won’t lose any more to this.

Sadness is all I can feel now. It is all that is left to me. It is a legacy borne of a lie and perpetuated by silence. A legacy of sadness is no real legacy at all but it is all that I have.

So friends understand my secrecy and respect it. Know that I don't do it out of malice but out of habit. Don't pity me or be angry for me. It does nothing but spread the legacy to you and yours. I don't want that for you. Be happy and truthful as best you can, that is all I really want for you now.

Sincerely,

The girl known as Mickey Davis