Marks on the World

[sidhe_faerie]

Is it wrong to want to leave a mark on the world? Something to remain when you die?

I think I do the things I do with the goal of leaving behind something Ive created to show that I was here. I craft and I write furiously. I must leave something to prove that I existed after all that know me are gone as well.

I have no children to carry on my blood. A decision that I don't regret. I would have never been a good mother. My genetics are too mangled and my temperament is too volatile. The combination of the two made the usual mark on the world impossible. 

What will happen to the things I've created is a mystery. Will they be enjoyed? Ignored? Or simply thrown away? It doesn't matter what happens to it all because I will cease to have control of it. I will be ash and the world will have to decide the relevance of it all.

The world will have to decide what my marks are worth to them. Will they be permanent or transitory? That is not my decision. If it were I would want it all to exist until the end of mankind. Unfortunately, that is unrealistic.

The thousands of words of stories…

The miles of yarn I have consumed….

The people I have touched in some way….

These are the marks I leave. These are the only way I can prove that I existed, even for a brief moment.

Is it enough? Is it ever?